I've lived through 75 of these 158 things..

I have lived through these things ...
1. Put numbers in the boxes instead of x's (example: 1, 2, 3, 4 ...)
2. Repost as "I have lived through ___ of these 158 things."


[1] I have read a lot of books.
[ ] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[2] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[ ] I have been to Canada.

[ ] I have been to Europe.
[3] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[ ] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[ ] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[ ] I have been snowboarding/skiing.
[4] I have played ping pong.
[5] I swam in the ocean. (does wading through the shallow parts count?)
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[6] I have seen fireworks.

[7] I have seen a shooting star. (Recently!)
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[8] I have almost drowned. (by my sister =/)
[ ] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.

[9] I have listened to one CD over and over and over again.
[10]I have had stitches.
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[11] I have stayed up 'til 2 doing homework/projects.
[12 ] I currently have a job. (Uh, soon =p)
[13 ] I have been ice skating. (But I'm really bad at it)
[14] I have been roller blading. (Ditto)
[ ] I have fallen flat on my face.
[13] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[ ] I have been in a fist fight.
[14 ] I have played video games for more than 3 hours straight.
[15] I have watched the Power Rangers.

[16 ] I attend Church regularly.
[17 ] I have played truth or dare.
[18] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[19] I have already had my 17th birthday. (uhh..)
[20] I've called someone stupid.
[21] I've been in a verbal argument.
[ ] I've cried in school.
[22] I've played basketball on a team. (For AMK CC! But my one and only time haha..
[ ] I've played baseball on a team.
[23] I've played football on a team. (On a casual basis)
[ ] I've played soccer on a team.
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played volleyball on a team.
[ ] I've played tennis on a team.
[ ] I've been on a track or cross country team.
[24 ] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped. (but i wish to at least once..)

[25 ] I've climbed a rock wall.
[26 ] I've lost more than 20$.
[27 ] I've called myself an idiot.
[28] I've called someone else an idiot.
[ ] I've cried myself to sleep.
[29] I've had (or have) pets.

[ ] I've owned a Spice girls CD.
[ ] I've owned a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I've owned an N*Sync CD.
[ ] I've owned a Backstreet Boys CD.
[ ] I've mooned someone.
[30 ] I have sworn at someone of authority before. (Army, but not in their face..)
[ ] I've been in the newspaper.
[ ] I've been on TV.
[ ] I've been to Hawaii.
[31] I've eaten sushi.
[32] I've been on the other side of a waterfall. (small waterfall in m'sia)
[33] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[ ] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[ ] I've watched the Stooges.
[ ] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[34] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.

[35] I've been called a geek.
[36] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade. (NUS. Haix)
[37] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[ ] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[ ] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours. (my parent's aren't here =( )
[38] I've met a celebrity/music artist. (Liang Jing Ru~~~!)
[39] I've written poetry. (Haikus about coke. In army. Bad ones. Don't ask)
[ ] I've been arrested.

[ ] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[ ] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[ ] I've tickled someone else until they cried. (I take revenge!)
[40] I've had/have siblings.
[ ] I've been to a rock concert.

[41] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[42] I've been in a play. (sec sch and in NUS)
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked first in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.

[ ] I've cried in front of my friends.
[43] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[ ] I've played Halo.
[44] I've freaked out over a sports game.
[ ] I've been to Alaska.

[45] I've been to China.
[ ] I've been to Spain.
[ ] I've been to Japan. (I want to go......)
[46] I've had a fight with someone on AIM.
[47] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[48] I've had serious conversations on any IM.

[49] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[50] I've been forgiven.
[51] I've screamed at a scary movie. (haha. zombie movies especially)
[ ] I've cried at a chick flick.
[ ] I've watched a lot of action movies.
[ ] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[ ] I've been to a rap concert.

[53] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[54] I've lived in more than 2 houses. (If the house in China counts..)
[55] I've driven on the highway/been on the highway.
[56] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 40 miles in a day.
[ ] I've been in a car accident. (I've seen a car in flames before in China though.)

[ ] I've done drugs.
[57] I've been homesick.
[58] I've thrown up.
[ ] I've puked on someone.
[ ] I've been horseback riding.

[ ] I've filled out more than 10 myspace/LJ surveys.
[ ] I've spoken my mind in public.
[59] I've proved someone wrong.
[60] I've been proven wrong by someone.
[ ] I've broken a leg.

[ ] I've broken an arm/fingers. (wrist? lol)
[61] I've fallen off a swing. (When i was young?)
[ ] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 minutes straight
[ ] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[ ] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.

[ ] I've lost my backpack.
[62] I've come close to dying. (While swimming when I was young..)
[ ] I've seen someone die.
[63] I've known someone who has died.
[ ] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.

[ ] I've done modeling. (clay??)
[64] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[65] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[66] I've realized how good my life is.
[67] I've counted my blessings. (that i have many times..)
[68] I've made fun of a classmate.
[69] I've been asked out by someone and I said no.

[ ] I've slapped someone in the face. (and I plan never to)
[ ] I've been skateboarding.
[ ] I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend. (which i'm thankful for)
[70] I've lied to someone to their face.
[71] I've told a little white lie.

[ ] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[72 ] I've fainted. (When i had dengue fever)
[ ] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[73] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[74] I've been pushed into a pool.
[75] I've been/am in love.

Emotions Part 2

Emotional breakdown, again.

Was talking to Marcus yesterday, over lunch. When I was telling him about how nowadays I'm struggling with things like anger management, he said, "Heh, that's part of growing up."

Yeah, indeed.

Lots of things to think about it. A few things I need to act upon now, and a few things that I want to act on soon. As Robbie Williams sings in "Angels"

"When I’m feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love"

The Da Vinci Code

Have been thinking for weeks on what angle I was gonna blog about the Da Vinci Code. You know, the book and movie that has all 100 million+ of us Christians in collective apoplexy. But since theferrett has talked about this topic, I'll link to his blog entries where he gives his thoughts on the book and how the DVC is just a fiction novel.

Hooray for livejournal.

PS: Oh yeah, the comments are worth reading too, generally..

Emotions

I used to be emotionally stable - I didn't feel anything easily. I didn't anger easily, I didn't get sad easily, I didn't get happy easily.. life before Christianity was a peaceful one. I had (and still have) several groups of close friends, I had a good family, I was (and still am) relatively well to do. I didn't have to worry about my grades. Absolutely no worries in my life.

Emotions back then was a all or nothing thing. Either I liked things intensely or couldn't be bothered with it at all. I don't call someone "friend" easily, but once you were a friend, I would value that relationship deeply. Drifting in the sea, without a care in the world, not knowing where I would go, but knowing it would be somewhere good. Not a bad life to live, for a non-believer. Many people strive to be where I was.. and I felt privileged to be in such a state.

Being in church though, has opened the whole Pandora's box of emotions for me. No longer am I emotionally self sufficient. I feel insecure at times, I feel unhappy, I feel lonely at times. I anger much easily now - I'm truly amazed that I have lost my temper several times these few months. I've experienced emotional breakdown, for the first time in my life.

But to counter balance that.. I've experienced many positive emotions. I smile much more. For the first time in my life I know what is the meaning of joy - the joy of seeing people coming to know God, the joy of seeing brothers and sisters mature as a Christian. I feel hope, hope for a better life, both in this world and the next.

The whole range of emotions, in various shades of intensity, has been opened within me. Something that I couldn't imagine happening to me ever in my life. It is a gift from God I value highly.. true it is double edged in nature.. I'm "weaker" now in terms of emotions.. I am no longer base my happiness within myself, but in external changable things.

But now I can say I don't just merely exist, but I live.. I no longer just drift aimlessly, but yearn for something greater in life..

Praise be to God =)

My view on philosophy and Christian apology

Today during the CG meeting held in NUS, Yufen passed around several books about Christian apologetics that YA borrowed from the library.. Haha, the title that caught my eye was Christian Ethics: Options and Issues by Norman Geisler. Think YA deliberately chose that book for me.. haha =p

The people that knew me only recently might be surprised that I was interested in philo only after I entered Army. Still distinctly remember the things me, Karwee, James, Tan and the rest discussed on the MINDEF Forum. At that time I didn't knew what Utilitarinism was, or that dualism was called dualism. I didn't know who Bentham was or that he invented the hedonistic calculus.

It was only after entering university, was I able to attach the names to the things we were talking about. It was awfully fascinating to me that we covered ground that great thinkers had trodded before us.

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Now that I am a Christian, most of these issues are now resolved for me. Nonetheless I am very interested to finish my so called "philosophical education". God gave humans a enquiring mind, and it's fascinating what philosphers have come up with over the years.

I used to rely heavily on Christian apology as a new believer to "cement" my faith.. but nowadays I really dislike apologetics as a whole. I think knowing the arguments (and how to argue) about Christianity is something necessary, but very ugly. While it serves as a bridge for non-believers to know about God, it is almost totally irrelevant to daily Christian living. You can do well as a Christian, and live a fruitful life, without having to know a single argument for God.

To steal a few lines from Wittgenstein's Tractucus (and to those who read philosophy I apologise for this atrocity) .. "he who understands me finally recognizes them as senseless, when he has climbed out through them, on them, over them. (He must so to speak throw away the ladder, after he has climbed up on it.) He must transcend these propositions, and then he will see the world aright."

Christian apology is the ladder where you climb to know God, but once you've reached there, you can effectively throw the ladder away.. you'll literally see the world anew. The ladder's only purpose now is to help other non-believers to climb up that ladder, so they can see Christianity as it truly is for themselves..

Christianity not a philosophical school of thought.. it is a all emcompassing (holistic) lifestyle..

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Haix, but I really wish I had a Christian whom I can talk philospophy with.. Don't know anybody who shares the same interest with me..

Haha, for the past two days I've been working in a secondary school as a facilitator for this bio enrichment workshop conducted for the students. Wouldn't call myself a teacher, although that's what the students called me.. haha

What an eye opening experience it was.. I still can remember the days in secondary school where everything was just about study and play. So I guess it was some kind of retribution of sorts that now it's my turn to handle these kids. Man were they a rowdy bunch.. I had to literally go around and wake up sleeping kids, confiscate things from kids that were fooling around. And to imagine I got one of the better classes - one of the other classes only had 1/8 of the students turn up for the second day.

If you were to put me into this course right now as a secondary school student once again, this workshop would be something that I would look forward to. They were being taught how to grow bacterial cultures on agar plates - stuff that I have just learnt this semester! It's really cool that secondary school and JC kids nowadays have such opportunities to do things that I only get to do in university level.

It seemed to me though ,that my main job as the facilitator was more of riot control then much teaching. I'd suppose it had to do with that these were not Raffles Institution students for example, so probably they were not so inclined to learn something that seemed so irrelevant.

I actually felt for the kids in a way though. Could remember having similar after school excursions to PUB or such things.. those days, I was much more excited over the thought of going to arcade with the rest after the field trip, rather then the field trip itself. Haha..

Man, what wouldn't I give to go back to secondary school or even JC again..

Elections 2006

Well, it's a few days past the results of the elections.. What can I say? I feel that the results is one of the best possible outcomes for Singapore as a whole.

Why do I say that? Well, it's true that exactly the status quo has been maintained - 2 Opposition SMCs, maybe an NCMP or two. That's true. But the great is that people are starting to become politically conscious. The quality of the Opposition's candidates are improving (look at the WP's chairman man. What a cool woman. haha. JBJ must be glad the WP's fortunes are improving). The Opposition's starting to be more active, for the first time in a while they're contesting more then half the consituencies.

And even more heartening, flickers of political awareness are starting to disseminate through the net. Look at the popularity of Mr Brown's semi-satire Persistent Non Political Podcasts, especially the Bak Chor Mee one.. haha.. And the carrot of HDB upgrading didn't sway the Opposition wards neither, which is heartening. Time the PAP thought of something new man..

And above all this, the most important thing, PM Lee has managed to get a convincing mandate for his first term, which is absolutely essential for Singapore's survival. Many MNCs invest in Singapore because they have faith in the SIngapore brand, which (currently) lives and dies with the wellbeing of the PAP. True, the "Suicide squad" sent to contest the PM's ward got one out of three votes, but 2/3s of the vote isn't bad either, and gives PM Lee more legitimacy instead of being an "walkover" PM.

Chiam and Low held on to their seats too, which is really reassuring.

Singapore's prosperity and survival is inexorably tied to the government, and the government is inexorably tied to the PAP. This has been mentioned even by the PAP themselves. If truly by some freak accident, more than half of the AMK GRC went "Ah, everybody else must be voting for the PM, let's give the WP a sympathy vote", and PM Lee lost his GRC, we would be in chaos overnight. Don't talk about political diversity and checks and balanced - our percieved stability as a invester friendly nation would be destroyed.

This election result is truly the best of both worlds - PM Lee gets a good mandate, and the Opposition aren't totally discouraged.

Haha, not really in writing form today, will whip this post into shape some other day =p

Thinking of her..

Was sitting alone in my house, listening to music.. and started singing along to Evan and Gerran..


Crazy for this girl

Chorus:
And I look at her, she looks at me
She got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel

As she carries along without a doubt
I wonder if she'll figured out
I'm crazy for this girl..
I'm crazy for this girl..


Haix ... =(

Wow.

I was talking to this sister that's waiting to get into NUS today, and man, is she well read. Me, I have no pretensions that I'm someone who read a lot of books, but I do like to think of myself as someone who has read more than his fair share. So when I heard she liked reading, I asked her what books she read.

She responded, "What kind?"

"Uh, modern day novels?"

She then rattled a list of authors that I've never heard of before, and for the life of me remember.

"Wow. How about something a little older?"

"Oh, you mean like.. " she proceeded to rattle off a second list of authors that I had heard of before, but never ever gotten to reading. Then we started comparing what we read and what we didn't.. and the only thing that I read that she actually didn't, was Les Misérables. Yay -_-

Then we started talking about philosophy, and my interest in it. Even took 3 modules on philo so far. She went "Oh ok.. I read a few philo books myself." And then she proceeded to list them..

You guessed it, practically every single philosopher I've heard of. As in, Plato Nietzche Kirkegaard Betrand Russell Descartes Wittgenstein Mill Hume etc etc etc.. The only notable exception was that she hadn't read Kant's Critique of Pure Reason, but uh, who was I to comment.

Overawed, I started a tentative discussion on Wittgenstein's Tractatus.. and went internally "Yep, she read it and she remembers all right". Not name dropping either. Sheesh.

And mind you, this is not a philo major, she's not even an undergrad. I officially hang my head in shame. I shall not call myself "interested in philo" until I've actually waded through half of the philo books that she read in passing. How does someone read so much without her brain exploding?

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Seriously, one notion in my mind that was very quickly disabused, was that Christians are all the same. After today's incident I took a stock count of the brothers and sisters I knew from NUS, we have...

Sporty people, quiet people, noisy people, a self trained computer expert, non self trained computer experts, a history major interested in comparatative religon, Deans list students, marathon and half marathon runners, pool shooters, a few dancers (ballet and modern), a few awesome guitar players, many good guitar players, a footballer who plays for his faculty, a varsity basketballer, one or two ex-school team basketballers, a combined schools team basketballer, a very lousy basketballer (me), a guy who has 11 patents in US (he did a student exchange program in Biovalley), a guy who runs his family business as well as being involved in start ups, , future teachers, a MAS scholar, people that are really good in art and craft, KTV goers, bookworms, a Young PAP party member, several good cooks, chinese speaking, english speaking, bilingual speaking, people who watch anime, people who play the piano, ex (insert high post of some secondary school CCA) etc etc..

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And there I was thinking that Army was the ultimate mixing pot. Church is even more astounding.. many different walks of life, one common faith, all rubbing shoulders together. And now I can add "one well read girl" to the list.

I am in some awesome company..

Dr Chee and his antics

General Elections are around the corner, want to give my 2 cents worth.

In general I do respect people who run as Opposition Party members. You feel that there should be some Oppositional voice in the government to act as a check and balance to the ruling party? I can understand that sentiment - many countries are run that way. You actually care enough to want to step up and run for elections as the Opposition? I sincerely tip my hat to you. Strength of your convictions and all that.

It takes guts to run as Opposition. I'm sure that in at least one point of time in their life, every prospective Opposition party member has carefully weighed the pros and cons of venturing into the political arena, and decided Yes, it matters enough to me. Yet, if you ask me to name one Opposition figure that I dislike, it definitely would be Mr Chee, the current Secretary General of SDP.

But I mean, seriously. Wassup with you, Mr Chee Suan Joon? Ok I understand you were fired from your professorial chair in NUS. I maybe can emphatise with your enmity against the PAP. But why do you insist on continuing all these antics that you do year in year out?

Hunger strike? Mmm... okay. Heckling (former) PM Goh a few years back? Uh, whatever you think of Mr Goh, at the very least give some respect to your own Prime Minister right? And now, once again, xiao-eh Chee writes inflammatry remarks in the SDP party paper and releases illegal podcasts. Once again, SDP as a party is in trouble because of Mr Chee's actions.

If you really want to serve the people of your country as a politician, for crying out loud stop all these nonsense lah! You know the government is gonna go through your newspaper with a fine comb, then don't write anything too rash! If the government makes podcasts illegal, then why do you still insist on releasing them? Machiam like it will cause a mad circulation of your message like that.

Not only you kicked poor Mr Chiam See Tong out of his Party, you're pulling down your party in flames. And, the worse crime of all, in my opinion, is that you're bringing down your other party members with you..

Like what Phua Chu Kang would say.. Use your blian, use your blian, use your blian lah! Being opposition is tough enough, why heap burning coals onto your own head, willfully? The WP and the SDA seem to be getting their act together, and I'm sure they'll get at least a decent amount of votes.

But for the SDP? Seriously, even if I had the vote, I wouldn't vote for you or your party.

Why I believe

Today, during Holy Communion, Claramae shared the passage in John 20:24-29 on Thomas's encounter with Jesus after this resurrection. Think it really spoke to me and reminded me of why I chose Thomas to be my baptismal name.. Thomas is commonly associated with doubt. Doubting Thomas.. haha.. but the reason I chose this name was because he struggled with his doubt, and emerged triumphant.

Walking the roads of faith is something that is not easy for an atheist. For me, all these thoughts and arguments in my mind has made my walk with God a tougher, and drier road. Where others tacitly agree and believe, I had to struggle with doubts and thoughts that spun in my mind. But praise the Lord, I've emerged triumphant from my struggles, and now I believe with all my heart and soul.

To those non-Christians reading this blog.. if we were to debate about the reality of Christ; just like any other debate, the one who wins is the one who goes in more prepared, who speaks better, who knows all the subtle tricks of argumentation (yes, it's true) , and the one who is able to command a greater presence in the discussion. The person who brought me to know Christ was a master at this.. and for the better part of a year I had to rely on these human arguments to prop up my faith.

Talk is one thing though. A person can leave the debating table defeated, but still unconvinced. I could win a debate with a "untrained" free-thinker, but what good does it do if I just focus on the arguments? Christianity is anything but sophistry. The more important thing that Christians can bring to the table, the biggest trump card, is the fact that God changes lives, and for the better. Various schools of moral philosophy, be it utilitarism, moral relativism or whatever you might mention - does not teach you how to live a rich and meaningful life. Christianity does. And that visible change is the thing that really draws people to God. All the arguments for God aren't worth a single penny compared to the power of a transformed life.

And the best part? You don't need to read philosophical tracts to be a Christian. You don't need an IQ of 140 to be a Christian. You don't need a net worth of a million dollars to be a Christian. Philosophy which requires an thinking mind, and induces headaches nonetheless. Christianity only requires that you believe, and you live it out. That's all.

In fact, God's existence is a fact that transcends other facts. I think if scientists say that "Oh, we've got it wrong all this while, actually Pi = 4" or "F actually is 0.9(ma)", or something along that lines.. well, it wouldn't really bother me. But God's existence is a fact that transcends all other facts, because not only it is a intellectual truth, but a emotional truth as well.

Christianity is not just about the visible outward signs - I dare say that church going, attending cell groups and all that is the lesser component of a Christian life. The far greater, and the far most precious part, is that fact the Christ changes lives, for the better.

God really has changed mine, hope you will experience it too one day..

(And despite what I said about philo, I still love philo. Especially moral philo, that's my pet favourite. Find it very interesting..haha. If you're so inclined do talk to me about it)

Just got the results for my Molecular biology CA that counts for 40% of the total grade... Wow. It is a slaughterhouse of dead bodies.. it's like 20% of them got Fs.. then a lot of them are like Cs, Ds and all that. Prof Loh Boh Chuan really showed no mercy man...! o_o

Haha normally would be very depressed and dun want to look further.. cos in such a situation I'd normally amongst the Cs (or Ds).. but I was enthusiastically searching for my matric number.. cos I really love this module a lot. Turns out I got a B+.. a very long time since I got that kind of result for a big test..

And a B+ in a field of Fs, Ds and Cs! Praise the Lord!!

This module's the first module in the Life science curriculum that I fell in love with so far.. Am really grateful that I did well for such a big test!

Need to fall in love with more life science modules next sem man... =)

Been thinking about what Alan shared in D242 about the Uni district vision.. spoke quite a lot to me.. Today Yufen was sharing to the rest of the care group again about this.. think it is quite relevant to every single one of us.

Like what Matthew 5:13-16 says.. we are the salt and light of this world, and as Christians the onus is on us to become people that can make impact on our immediate sphere of influence. It's very true that after I've recieved Christ that a lot of the drive has gone out of me.. but that's not the way it should be yah?

Christianity is a life style that is supposed to maximise one's potential to the full - this is not just mere rhetoric, but it's a reality. God's love gives us the strength to become something more than we can normally be, to stretch our comfort zones and to live life to the fullest. It's quite sad that the leaders are the ones that are the salt and light, but the rest seem to be lagging behind.

As I was telling Sijia yesterday, can't afford to be slack as a Christian or as a person anymore.. in a few years time when I reach year 4, don't want the newbies who just come in to say "Oh, so that's what a year 4 Christian, a person who's been through the system, looks like."

Like what Jan said, for too long our vision has been only focused on God, the ministry and our immediate friends. It's time to look at the horizons and dream big dreams. The university ministry isn't supposed to produce weak willed flaccid followers - but mature adults, tried and tested, and poised to take on the working world..

It's time to let the past be bygones, and strain forward to what's ahead...

Well, this is my new blog.. shifted over from livejournal. Decided to start a new one primarily because the old blog doesn't really reflect the person that I am now. Think God has really changed the way I view things, like what the Bible says - "The old has gone, the new has come".

Used to be much more introspective, and writing a blog was my voice, the part of me that wanted to say things that I had nobody else to talk to about. Things like "Oh, how beautiful sunrise is." or "Oh, something interesting happened to me today." Now, between God, my friends and the brothers and sisters in the Hope NUS community, pretty much of the trivial stuff have been covered. I've become much more outward looking, be it family, friends or strangers, something that I could not have imagined happening to me ever. God changes lives man, hell yeah..

Another reason why I didn't write so much for the good part of a year was because I was still a young Christian. Didn't want to act "holy" in my old blog, especially since all my readers were non-Christians, and to start talking about God would turn them off. (Livejournal has this thing called friend's list which compiles all the updates of the people you've friended. So they pretty much have to read what I write, or remove me from their list.) Wasn't stable as a Christian neither, and was considering leaving at a point of time, so pretty much avoided writing about the whole Christian thing in my blog. And being a Christian that does not write about Christian stuff makes your entries very asinine, which was pretty much what my LJ degenerated into.

Pretty much stopped writing seriously for almost a year now, let's hope I can pick up where I left off. Still fooling around with the settings.. not v used to blogger yet.. haha